Elects Camp Day 1
Ponned School! Muahaha... Woke at 2pm! Shiok ar... Doubled and tripled checked my bag b4 heading off to council camp!...
Met up with sixun for my stuff and chatted with guanyi and jingwen b4 falling in...
Siow man so hectic! Run here run there! Row call! Pumping! And more scolding! The got some stupid talk on proposals... bleah...
Fun time! Games! Called Night confidence walk! I was blind! So shiok i like being blind! then we walked to some place where i didnt noe wat was going on cos i was BLIND! It was about counting some stones in a marked area with a blind and mute person. Sad lah cos my grp was scolded for neglecting me cos they left me to stand all alone at the back. i very stupid also cos i nv sit down.but cant blame me cos i wanted to move in the beginning but i nearly toppled down the stairs.
learning pt: working together with our disablilties
I was assigned to be blind again... haha... second station was about licking a lolipop stuck in a sea of small worms. the gals claimed it was smelly but i tot nothing of it. they said i very pro at licking cos i moved my head instead of my tongue... like duh... haha i rock!
learning pt: countering our fears
Now i was assigned to be normal! we head to near the parade square there. very easy cos all i did was hold our stuff and lead 3 blind ppl. we did a shoelace game... tie one of our shoe laces to the next guy and form together a human chain. got loophole and we managed to get from one pt to the other by hoping! tried to lead but was quite scuky ar....
learning pt: cordination and steping back
Now i was assgined to be normal again! Argh... then the 2 heaviest ppl were crippled! quite proud of myself cos i carried a 55kg gal on my back. cos i wanted to walk fast cos she very heavy. then kinda left the rest behind. me and a gal alternate to carry her all the way up 4 stories to the school crest and played a stupid game like singing the ABC backwards while frog leaping...
learning pt: erm...
Now i am blind again... we were quite lost cos we had tons of steps going down... got scolded again cos we were walking too fast for the ppl who were carrying the heavy ppl to catch up. This station so scary we went into this dark hut and were told traditional council ghost storey... no lights lor damn scared... we had some tradition of putting our right hand b4 we leave... b4 that we had to pass sweets using our mouths in the dark.
Finally we finished the games and did reflections. we stared the sky and something came to my mind...
In a sky full of darkness and clouds...
The wind finally blew...
Clouds shifted...
Stars revealed...
One star shone the brightest...
In this time of darkness...
Bringing hope and light...
To all those around...
Perhaps there really is a silver lining behind every cloud....
Light at the end of every tunnel...
I feel blessed to be here...
The final 74...
Maybe its really time to move on...
It was just an overwhelming feeling cos i really enjoyed myself... and yah... just tots about my life in nj and hc... later in the night i couldnt sleep was just reflectingon my life now and in hc... there was really loads of memories i cherish and maybe this is realy for the best...
posted at [11:59 PM]
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Wednesday, April 27, 2005
Light at the end of the tunnel
Just came back from dinner with cai jie, peiying and caijie again... So happy... Finally something good came out of me coming into NJ- I got into council! Yeah... So happy! I got a meagre 97 votes but the lowest was 74 and i am 13 positions from the bottom... which is... 61st... heck lah! Get in a happy liao...
Was so nervous cos i couldnt go for the results... actually i didnt want to go cos i was so certain i will kenna kicked out... No confidence wat so ever... also i really tot that my luck was alwasy bad and getting kicked out of hc proved it even more... was practically shaking during practice and anxiously waiting for the sms that nv came... tot my friends didnt noe how to break the news to me...
was talking to rui ping and she kinda talked to me to made sure i wont be sad if i didnt get in... then sixun came back... my heart just stopped cos i wanted to noe the results... but i scared i will lose face in front of my 2 section mate. Claris looked ok... i think... then sixun said i got in and i was like... what? u sure?
kinda doubted her and she told me tat i was missing out on a lot... i was so happy then but i dare not show it in case got another melvin... then she told me claris also got in.
during break, shiying told me 8 of her classmates voted for me cos they tot i looked cute on the tissue box... haha so flattered... many ppl asked me whether i got in or not and i said maybe... in the end i was confirmed but jun hao when he told me he knew the results way early in theafternoon cos got councillors in his class... yay!
posted at [11:52 PM]
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Self consolation
Heck care about campagining...
Heck care about tomolos result...
I'm used to bad luck
I'm used to rejection
I'm used to embarrassment
What can be more devastating then being kicked out of hc...
posted at [8:20 PM]
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Sch rocked
Went to school with a positive attitude and it was quite enjoyable! Was chirpy and like my normal self in hc... its all in the mind...
posted at [8:15 PM]
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IP preview performance
Yes... today we sightread a piece again and i am once again reminded of my sucky sightreading skills... its japanese graffitti... the performance was ok lah... the band sounded very impressive cos of all the echoes in the linkway and again i was spell bounded by the slapper... lame tessimoh and i devised a new way to hold our oboe... still got room for improvement...
after that had seciton lunch... we ostraed ourselves from the the rest of the band.. and ate three diff types of lunch- mee goreng,fried noodles and mee siam... very fun... we had a lot of fun critising one another and dropping stuff on the table... great section bonding... i thikn our section most fun! then me and sixun went to kope food from the buffet... we koped like loads and loads and ran off... hahaha... we made a mess of the table cos we were pratically like flinging stuff form one tuppleware to the other... YAY! my section rocks...
sigh... hope i get into council cos i am quite sure that i am in the bottom 18... hope got miracle...
I just wanna scream...
i feel so suffocated...
i can't breathe...
can somebody help me...
posted at [9:06 PM]
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Wednesday, April 20, 2005
Speech Day
The worse day of my life... tot my speech very good but got not a lot of response from the audience... somemore my grouping the ppl all so qiang... u oe got 3 or 4 in top 20... argh... felt outshone and demoralised...w hen i got to the last speech i was so disheartened i did not bother to answer any quesitons... i regret it now...
HALL: freaking nervous... screwed up speech... did not ans questions but some ppl also nv ans i think
LT5: ok lah but very happy someone directed a question at me... tot my campaigning went quite well. he asked if i will still provide tissues after the campaigning then i said if i am voted in... i will lor... i also said i will wipe u clean which was stupid but nvm...
break: tried my best to fit in but didnt really with the council elects felt left out but its ok cos its the first time i am meeting them anyway but they all seemed so bonded perhaps all ogls...
LT1: sucked big time... lousy speech + dishearteded + nv ans question... worse is that sixun had to be there to witness everything...
went back to hc later to get instru... happy to be back but sad that i sucked... even fel's frend also said that i sucked... sobsss...
band went quite well i campaigned again cos ia m totally desperate and i am counting on them for votes... hope everything turns out well...
posted at [9:22 PM]
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a sudden thought
you only treasure what u had when u lose it
posted at [8:19 PM]
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Why?
Dunno why i got a sudden urge to go back...
I really miss everything...
All the crap and crap that happened...
why must fate be so cruel to tear us apart...
throw me into something else...
its nice there too...
getting used to it...
but i just miss the times...
where i would look forward to going to school...
sitting on the class bench...
getting my instrument only when they finished warm ups...
running back to the class bench then running to chop good seats...
i miss sitting next to ppl who mean something...
i miss them waking me up in lectures...
i just miss everything...
so unfair everything must be taken away from me...
why?
posted at [6:22 PM]
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miss the times...
i noe i should have gotten over hc but just cant help myself thinking about it sometimes... the fun we had together...
today went back with crystal, glad she met her frends or else feel very guilty dragging her all the way there...
yes... met a lot of familar faces and talked to a lot of ppl... was sitting at the class bench talking to huili, huiling, kailing, swin and wei loon.... just talked about stuff and more stuff... yah... so nostalgic...like the good old times... wei loon also very nice...
sometimes i wished i could turn back time and relive everything again... but since its not possible just have to deal with it...
posted at [8:17 PM]
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Wednesday, April 13, 2005
Band at nie
STRESSED!!! With council stuff... how to garner more votes... sigh... trying my best liao... hope everything turns out fine...
today band very funny cos me and tess got some stpid scandal so we pretended to be maarried and we wore some scotchtape thing as a our engagement thingy! so funny lor... somemore she spposed to be 9 months pregnant... so i divorced her cos the child isnot mine... so childish... we used our scotcht tape to make a ooe mute!
After that went dinner... got to noe valarie better...
posted at [11:09 PM]
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EARTHQUAKE part 2
Aiyoh... today b4 i came back for tuition... got earthquake... my mom ask me not to come up but i very sian so i dun care... later... i talking to samuel halfway got another earthquake... quite vigourous... my cous was screaming but we all too lazt to walk down so we just continued doing our stuff... so funny... as the flat was shaking i was tlaking to samuel lor... he say i very heck care... i guess so too...
today i think i finally xiang tong le... awakened... saw the light... njc isnt all so bad... though i will miss the ppl here in hc... i will just have to try harder to keep in contact... sorry for being such a wreck over the past week... thanks to everyone who helped me in one way or another...
posted at [8:20 PM]
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j1 outing
today i woke up late cos i tot go boon lay very fast but boy i was wrong... in the end my dad also drive me to jurong east... sigh... by the time got there already very late... felt so guilty so took money from my dad to treat the whole section=13 ppl hash brown... lucky nie very cheap...
band prac was very boring... but i still very rusty... must practise... had a lot of fun playing with the umbrellas with tess... stupid ruiping and sixun dunno wanna go...
1st: we tried to take out the umbrella from the benchs: ffailed
2nd: tried to spin the umbrella: failed
3rd: tried to close the umbrella: failed
the string i thought could be tugged came off! i was so scared i quickly threw it in the dust bin and left...
yay! band over and we had lunch... sixun disappeared so me tess and ruiping went to look for our ring... tikamed for a bandana and got 2 of the same designs... i whole life so unlucky... later watched pacifier... not bad lah... oh well... at least got to noe the j1s better... our ring maybe on monday then get... haha
posted at [8:10 PM]
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Coucil Q/A
So kewl.... today i pon lessons to go to hc! so happy can wear hc uniform.... then can sit with the class and seniors... get back some of the lost gan jue... haha...
so boring leh... hoped i helped sam and karin with the stupid questions... sam and karin so romantic... tui lai tui qu... in the end sing a song together.. .mx must be careful! sam can also sing quite well... herbert very mean ask bobbert such a difficult question... so happy all 3 of u got in! lucky i nv join or els u all no chance one...
came to hc with tess to visit guan min but she not there... nvm... nxt week bring tess and sixun go surprise her... the sixun say i can go to nie so i run back... dropped a lot of thing on the way... but go there also no use... dunno a lot of ppl there... so sian... later wanted to go band later but i think i cannot make it... so met kl, swin, yt, jon, minnie...
talked a lot then went home... hope i get shortlisted on mon or else i will be pissed... i hate JAE...
posted at [10:44 PM]
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interview
today got interview i very nervous... i went there and waited for like 1 hr... went there at 4.45... and only got to be interviewed at 6pm...
firstly, i was supposed to obeserve my surroundings and see whther i can show some inititative... hints from my frend mah... i saw the white board dirty... i asked to clean it but they say "no need"... i was like diao... 3 drops of sweat...
secondly, i was asked the standard questions... quite ok... one was about one aspect that i can improve on the school... i tot about the class unity i desperately missed and crapped a lot about it... haha
thirdly, i had this stupid senario thingy where i was supposed to persuade someone from my house to run... then i started quite ok then they keep diao naning until i ended up sa jiaoing which i tot was hopeless...
forthly, i was asked to cheer... so embarassing and my most feared part... i cheered once wrongly... then i stopped and cheered again... this time even though it was wrong... i just continueed...i started screaming and clapping at the end to attract attention... another embarrassing moment...
fifthly, i was asked if i prefered spongebob or captain planet and how did it refer to myself... i said spongebob cos he very cute and well liked... maybe i should have said capt planet coshe saved the day... but i just continued.. say he very pro... got a lot fans... has he own movie... now no one noes who the hell the cap planet... the i said like spongebob very aa and act cute cos i wanna attract gals... just wanted to leave an impression...
oh well... heard them all laugghing when i exited... dunno whether good sign or bad but i quite pessimistic...
posted at [8:51 PM]
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Wednesday, April 06, 2005
Council elections
Council elections
jia you!!!! boobs, karin and sam!!!!!!! i will come and support u!!!!!!! so exciting u Q&A! must answer properly!!! try to be funny also!
I getting used to njc liao... ppl there are also very nice!! love s16 and band!! yay!!! miss the times we had together!! i wanna kan titu!!!! so long nv kan i feel very sad. can't wait to kan with u all again...
oh yeah!!! hi wei loon! u very lucky got into the coolest class in hc!!! hi! have fun ok! must continue the nj spririt! must mug mug and mug togehter!
melvin
posted at [11:00 PM]
njc band rox!
HAHA!!! can't believe i am writing this so quickly but nj band very fun! Esp our oboe section so happening... tkk dun kill me but we also wan section ring!!! haha... we going to make on sat! ours will be cooler than urs!!!!!!!! b4 that got section breakfast too at jp b4 we going to nie to practice! so exciting...
today quite fun also... crapping with sixun and ruiping/sweeping... the conductor said the second in takers were doing so well...mentioned my name... i was giggling cos i bet it was becos he couldnt hear me properly... hope i am really confirmed in syf...
later got band dinner! very fun... let me get the names right... jiaming, wilson, deon, kar wai, eng hon, cai jie, joanne, shu he, kristee... i cannot rmb... yay! band rox... looking forward to band prac... haha... hope my interview goes well tomolo...
...dunno why... keeping thinking about the fun times i had in the first 3 months... esp kantituing with the guys during recess... oh man... i so wish i can do it again...... crapping with them and teasing them..... i miss the times....
posted at [10:40 PM]
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ReAppeal day no.7
i guess its really over....
a closure...
from 2 touched and sympathic souls...
to all the questions...
to all the doubts...
the endless waiting in the carpark...
the mindless wondering in the ad block...
its time to move on...
and i really will...
but all the memories...
will be deeply cherished...
ps: noezin & i will be writing a book for my 06s75 and s77 juniors
posted at [8:55 PM]
05s16
ok ok... njc isnt really as bad as i thought... starting to like my whole class a lot now... actually a whole lot now... there are really fun and great ppl here... the gals are the best... i think they are so much fun! haha... hope the guys dun read this... th guys in my class all so pro lor... heard from the gals themselves...
lectures suck lar so boring! I love my form teacher!!!!!!!she rocks!!!!!!! been stoning the whole day cos can escape tuts cos 2nd intaker mah... need time to adapt and catch up... HAHA... dunno why keep thinking of hc and s75... can see the clock tower from my physics lab... so much memories... need some time to get over them...
anyway... weixuan rox... so nice accompany me to th band room to get my stuff... y u dun listen to us and choose to walk the other way... there wet mah... lol....
posted at [8:50 PM]
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hc visit no.6
yup... thats the no. of time i visited hc ever since i was posted to njc...
today went there early cos my lessons ended at 12.30... so slack! haha... i went with my fellow class mate and hc reject louis... got a lot of flies on the way... cracked him up like mad about my feelings about hc in my weird chinese accent and act-poeyic style... we went to my class bench and did our fav hobby- mugging!!! met a new frend... likai... prob irritated by my nonsensical talking... lol
finally lessons ended and swin came to find me... quickly walked to the classroom to aviod being recongnised in njc uniform... yay!!! Was greeted by a sea of brown... everyone all looked more matured in thier new uni... sad lah i kena axed but nvm... i will get over it.... then i told them all about my day and even learnt the BL dance... looked tough but i will work hard... dun worry!
then they all left... i wanted to leave but got a strange teacher kept standing there... then me and ytjust dun care and walked off lor... found kl, clem and hli... said bye to the co ppl and left to nj...
posted at [9:08 PM]
band prac
Aiyoh so sian... got band prac today... so many running notes... until i siow... very dificult leh amazonia... sigh... musy practise harder...
had a lot of fun crapping with my section esp with tess... ruiping so nice keep helping me count!!! so gan ren!!! thanks to sixun for all the advice too... so funny.., got scolded by the conductor for talking... oh no got bad rep liao... trying desperately to make more firends....
so funny... play halfway got smog coming in thru the lights... then from under the door also got smog... so funny had to evacutate cos very bad to breathe in all the crap...
band ended at 8pm... maybe i just need more time to adapt to the new band... miss hc band...
posted at [9:01 PM]
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i miss hc band...
yesterday i went back to hc cos the dance party very cliquish... alot of first in takers... my class and og both ponned... ogl also ponned...so no food for me... so pathetic... yup... then met liting and went backwith her lor...
in the afternoon i went back already... saw hui wen but she dunno where the section was then i met shelly... so we went to go look for them together... found them in the amphi... saw the trumpets on the wasy and charmine asked me to smile... daniel also came adn talked in his funny glow in the dark uni...
talked to guan min who was feeling very sad about her block test results... she did damn well for maths... got 89! wow! but she say she disappointed with her physics... she encouraged to continue bugging the admin and she really hoped i'd stayed... but... i really dunno... later the rest of the section came and alwyn also asked about my appeal... later talked to gordon also... then i saw one njc gal and tot she was waving at me so i waved back but actually waving at gordon lor... so pai sei
in the evening when i came back... saw sixun on the way! so qiao... she cut her hair... look a little bit like steff sun... asked her if she wanted to some along and she agreed lor... too bad fluobes left liao and she left with john...
saw bernard taking to wei xuan and went to talk to the leader of the proest grp for the bio thingy... dunno why he suddenly lifted me up and carried me to the band room from outside the audi... so scary lor... i was lifted quite high... then inside the band room, wei xuan totally cracked meup with this "my brothers and sister" drug ad... lol... then got lifted again by daniel... i so light meh... lolzzz... somemore say can use me to do weights...
later michelle started blowing bubbles while me and litng were talking to pq mong and david... so nice the bubbles... wished i had brought my bag so i can go for band dinner... oh well... nnice ppl at i will miss here... hope i can play for the concert!!
posted at [6:25 PM]
nj band pract no.1
today got band prac... was looking forward to it so i can see the conductors and meet more ppl there... to my surprise... the SYF piece was so dificult!!! die die!!! sixun, ruiping and tess all can play lor... they played the piece for me once and i noe i am screwed... have to practise extra hard to catch up and hopefully play in syf...
during sectionals... haha... we talk and talk and talked... until the conductor came... he asked me to come over and spoke to me about stuff.... whether i sad about not being accepted to hc again... whehter i settled down... wat sec school... and about tian tee... lol... yup... after that i had a terrble timetrying to sight read both pieces... cos in hc we nv practise the set piece in hc cos its supposedly easier for our standard... lolzzz... so ijust stoned while i returned sixun her oboe... yah... practically stoned and near dosed off... kena scolded for crossing my legs by mr hon.... oops...
band ended... time to go lunch... all the j1s dun wanna go... or maybe they go themselves... so i tagged along with sixun... got very giddy in the bus... then at west mall i sat with jun hao, daniel, crystal and mabel... tried to talk a lot with them... very nice ppl... after that outside i met weilun and his frend... haha so "qiao"... afterwards had to rush home...lost my way and met wei lun again... asked him for directions and scooted off again...
tonight i am going to practice hard... sixun told me that it is very sad that ppl will forgot her after she left... wonder it will happen to me...
posted at [6:09 PM]
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Aprils fool
Yes... If u read kailings blog... here is my take on the "aprils fool" joke...
after meeting up with the band ppl... I went to the class bench and saw jon playing bridge with the kl, 2hls... after a while swin came with some news... suddenly... hl hit swin and swin started giggling... i tot it was kinda wierd but did not take it to heart.. jon left and i took over... played a while and went to change to the nj polo tee...
yes... when i came back... i could nt find my wallet and my new hp! OMG! i was so scared... i looked thru my bag and still could not find it... sigh... i tot it was really lost when hl said that someone picked it up... then i tot i was kinda suspicious... aprils fool i tot... but dare not try to spoil the joke but scully if real one then i also no face... so i played along and went back to the toliet first then the band ppl there to check... on the way there i kept turning around trying to catch hl and kl sniggering behind my back and i could expose thier little ploy... but to no avail... "they must be damn good actresses" i tot...
I went to the band area and couldnt find anything... didnt ask my band snrs cos i didnt want to alarm them... then i knew that it had to be a aprils fool joke... i decided to play along and go back to the class bench... kl and hl were very flustered and i tot to myself again... "yeah rite..."
this time they tot swin took it for an aprils fool joke and called him... they even scolded him for taking it... "Great acting skills and very realistic" i tot to myself. But swin say he did not... i also didnt think that swin would go to such an extent to play an aprils fool joke on me... maybe if i were still in hc yes... but i going a rough patch now... so tot it was unlikely... then when kl looked at me at asked if it was an aprils fool joke... i was like " woah lao... they must be plan damn long to make it sound damn realistic... maybe even analysed how i would think and react in such situtations..."
Then they asked me go sc room to check... they seemd to keep wanting me to leave the class bench... i was kinda suspicious then already so i inisited i left it here... they no choice decided to check for me... when they left i saw them smiling and waving to jia ying... if this is real ppl got time to smile meh... then it struck me... swin must have took it from me while i was looking at them play then passed it to hl. hl was shocked so she slapped his hand... it all made sense now and i was sure it was an aprils fool joke...
then when they came back they say dun have... i tot they collabarated with welin to hide my hp there and i went to search there sure got one... i was sure it was with them... so i asked them to call again... trying to hear some vibration sounds from their bag... then i felt the vibration on the class bench... i tot it was in my bag... but actually it was under someones bag lor...
then everyone all so funny... all giving thier sides of the story,,, they tot my imagination very fertile... haha... they all also really tot i sabo them but i did not... where got mood too... we wanted to play a trick on swin but i told them not to... so nice rite... haha... oh well... quite an unforgettable day...
posted at [11:00 PM]
Reappeal day 6
time has passed...
wounds have yet to be healed...
my studies are being affected...
my cca and social life is too...
my mind is telling me to give up...
but my heart does not...
so many things i would be leaving behind...
so many memories that i cherish...
maybe it is really time to give up...
and start afresh...
i really dunno...
posted at [10:55 PM]
njc day no.4
Yes.... today very fun! First time went for band there! I mean in the morning... Got a great experience! So fun... met more band ppl... My section ultra nice... all gals... got sixun ,tess and one more j2... will try to rmb her name tomolo... had warm ups in the band room... then we went outside the hall to play for the ppl inside the hall... yup... No space for us inside... Missed on all the announcements though. Only got 2 oboes for 4 ppl... haha... dunno how to fit for syf...
Got to noe my class today. It is streamed and it is so called the best triple sci class... there the ppl very very nice... maybe i will start to like them more and my jc life wont be as sad as i tot it would be? met 2 2nd in takers at the door... they very nice from nan hua also... they are alica and XL... met a few other ppl in our class and i think it will be as fun as 05s75... heard they are close to thier snr class too! Yay!
Took the sc form today to think whther i wanna join over the weekends... dun really noe a lot of ppl there exp for my og, band, class and some acs ppl (cant recognise most of them in thier nj uni...)
posted at [10:47 PM]
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